So our relationship has finally came to an end.

I was able to pull myself together yesterday night. And told him I couldn’t do it anymore. We haven’t seen each other for about a week now and it’s such an abnormality for a relationship to go through for the fact that we aren’t in a LDR basis. I told him it’s over, although I don’t know what is it like to live a day without him. I knew it’s not gonna be easy.

I’ve been in many relationships, but this relationship is the one that meant so much to me. This guy is the only one who meant this much to me. I can’t measure the dedication and the patience I’ve offered in our relationship, but reality check-Everything has it’s end. I don’t know what is a day like without calling someone babe, without flooding someone’s inbox, without arguing with somebody because I miss him too much. What is it like?

It hurts like eff. It doesn’t seem to affect him and I don’t wanna fake it anymore.

Yes, to whoever is reading this I am hurt. I am crying. I am dying inside. I am bursting in tears. And I’m so tired of pretending that I don’t care, that it’s never my loss, that it’s easy this way, and that I’m the one that weighs more pride. I know I’m broken. My heart is shattered into pieces and it just hurts.The feeling is indescribably tragic.

But I know with God’s help I’m going to get through this. I’m going to tell my friends one day that it doesn’t hurt anymore, that I’m healed and I’m over it. And yes, this has made me strong.

Dear ****,

You’ve done things to me, that a girl could never withstand. The chances, sacrifices, and forgiveness I gave you was endless.It was so hard loving you. But you took it for granted. I told myself

I should’ve listened to what they said.

No, I wanted this and I did nothing to harm and destroy us. Yes, I love you. It will take a while to move on, and I’m not going to deny the love I have for you til the day I finally move on and that I will never for a fact regret that I ever met you.